On the absurdity of writing poems without meanings; or I wrote an entire essay on “Kubla Kahn” only to find out it was an opium dream

I had a notion. And then the stunning dandelions danced round and round as they sang songs of worlds yet to be discovered. They sang to the sun, so high above. It was yellow and they were yellow, but it was of a much more majestic hue and, therefore, was worshipped as a god by the people. The same people decapitated the dandelions.

The strongest returned and aged gray to bring the same people luck. Their dancing slowed and their singing turned into a requiem that they sung to the moon, who now shared their complexion.

Then the winter came and beat the dandelions with its genocidal will. Only the silent stars mourned the loss of the music that they loved despite misconstruing the lyrics. They insist upon complexity in everything, even the quietest song of the tiniest flower.

I had a notion. All the people were stars and they were silent and cold. They looked down and felt nothing for the dying because they had never really listened. Why would a star listen to a weed?

Not Free but Falling

Nobody heard the contorted corpse
Or saw him as he was falling
He was much disinclined to try to fly
And not free but falling.

Fool, he put stock in satire
And now he’s dead.
He was no newly formed giant but scared man.

Oh, no, not again
(A large sigh blossomed)
He had been fatalistic all his life
And not free but falling.

Justifying Small Personality Quirks

They cry as they’re crushed.
Squish, squish. Squiiish
out their blood, their gore.

The floor runs red.
Toes get stained royal.
Heels grind deep nectar.

Enthralling murder
destroys my inhibitions
and crushes my qualms.

I drink their blood
and their spirits calm
my frenzied passions.

I sober up,
wipe away death,
and plan my next encounter.

Helicopter Gardening

My pride and joy
This land sweet sown
Sprouts of healthy green.
The hours I spent
And toiled with hand
To make the plot you see.
I dug with trowel
And shovel sans gloves,
So the dirt would merge with me,
A few inches down
To scratch a home
For each hopeful little seed.
Flooding each site
With life through water
And from it the bugs flee.

Now to reward my work
Stalks spring up from bed
As if no more to sleep.
And as if I dreamed
My green thumb up
Because I fail to believe,
I rip them out
To check for roots
And meet them with glee.
No longer doubting
How benevolent
Life can be.

Money

Money
Makes the world go round.

Money
Sees my frown
And turns the wold upside down.

Really?
Did you expect that to rhyme?
It’s not my fault the world is
So predictable.

And let’s be honest
Money won’t make me happy.

But I’d rather be rich and frowning
Than drowning
In the slow death of passion
Of love
Of desire.
Watching everything become
More gray
More broken.

And if we are frank
We’ll admit that
Money
Can bend the world
And make everything just a little bit
Worse
For everyone without.

Damming

There once was a girl who never cried
In spite of how she tried
To live like a normal without pride
Even on the day that her grandfather died
But everyday she lived a lie
Because on the inside she wept

A Walk Through the Laughing Mountains

The laughs pealed out
With such life
That the mountains couldn’t help
But try to catch the sound.
Giving chase as the noise bounds.
Slipping past ancient hands.
Only to fade in time.

And it’s good that it did not last
Because each attempt at mimicking
The pure laughs
Just returned more hollow and pale.
Fading.
Because a laugh should never
Be hollowed out completely.
Nobody should hear
Its other side.

To the Moment Before the Rain Falls

A chaos of wind
ties your hair in knots round your neck.
Dried blood bricks tense
against a sheet metal sky.
Leaves whirlpool at your feet in a furious river
that snakes through the buildings.
Proud trees practice yoga,
downward dogging at the air’s dare.
No smell wafts
except anticipation of the ground exhaling.
There is no noise to notice,
all the birds have hunkered down.
But you still stand
staring like a mesmerized fool
who challenges the darkening horizon to come.
The sky stops breathing
and you know the future
a moment too late.

Defining a Room by its Shadows or To those who read these simple words

I am a person same as you
Living under a sky that’s blue
Casually strolling down a street
Anyone you could easily meet.

I am a person who needs the air
Who screams and rants that life’s not fair
But eventually will continue on my way
You could bump into me one day.

I am a person with hopes and dreams
With hidden demons and fights unseen.
Looking for knowledge from which I can glean
A kernel of respite no matter how mean.

I am a person same as you.
I have opinions I think true.
But they’re not stone set, just a gray hue
On the scale of life that holds me and you.

I am a person with a story to tell
But you are the judges so treat me well.
If you would just listen to my plea.
Please, please, please see me.

Infallible

When I die
Do I want to be right?
Or do I want
In my heart
To risk forever?

That a god could forgive
My obstinance,
My doubt,
And bring me in
Where I would face
The smiling faces
Of those who wish
Their god was slightly more vengeful
After all.

After all
I know those faces.
As a girl I met the holy.
I remember the devout.
Damming me,
Pitying me,
Wishing to save me.
Do I want to be with them
Forever?

Or be stuck worse off?
Justified in my logic
That at least the devil
Is as evil as he was supposed to be.
And I unwilling to accept
A god that is not.

But suppose I’m right
And destined for dust.
My only prayer
Is that the earth cannot ponder
On right and forever.
That is the compensation
I ask for having lived.